Waiting ...

Tonight cannot seem to go by fast enough. Tomorrow morning, myself, Mike, Kristine, Jeffery, and Jim will be joining Scott and BR in there studio for the final cut. 20 weeks ago 30 of us started on a journey far bigger then we ever imagined. And tonight as I lay here, a million things are running through my head. From the beginning I would say that I was going to win, but for me I say that with all. In the truth of it, I never thought I would still be here. The judges seen something in me, and I thank them from the bottom of my heart for giving he this opportunity. I thought it would be Mike and Brent. Brent was cut, but was able to fundraise his $10,000. Mike, through plenty of hard work has been able to raise $10,000 also. And after reading his blog, he stated that if he wins, he is going to use his $10,000 and give it to those who are still needing some money. Mike is so wonderful. I first met him in the La Mesa Trek Store where he would volunteer. 

I am filled with so much emotion. We have no idea of how tomorrow is going to play out. My heart is pounding 90 miles an hour right now in anticipation of it all. How will I ever sleep tonight. I have been trying to get my bike ready this evening and get some packing started. I need to save some of it for last minute. Tomorrow, is going to be busy regardless. 

Tuesday nights are one of my favorite nights during the week... I have been taking figure skating lessons on Tuesday nights since January 2008. It all started with a trip home for the holidays and my number one fan, she said how cool it would be if I could take lessons out in San Diego. Being that I love her so much, I thought why not. Patsy, she is quite the little girl. Well now she is a teenager and a freshman in high school. From the very start, she followed me around and was my side kick. Most kids would hate having their baby sister or brother want to be with them 24/7. But I have loved having her there. And I know the first chance she gets, she will be calling me to see how things went for me. I know that alot of people are wondering the same thing. After figure skating I have a little girl, who I have to pay a visit to. My little friend Samantha, is turning 2 tomorrow. I have the chance to take another private lesson with my coach Chea, but I don't know if I am going to yet. 

Am I ready to make this trip down the coast? Is my endometriosis and fibromyalgia going to allow my body to? Is my health strong enough for this? Are the fires going on going to effect us? What is the weather going to be like? Too hot, too cold? Am I going to forget something? One reveled on Sundays ride that underwear was forgotten by someone on last years ride. Did I do enough to show the judges and the CAF that I really want this? How was my attitude? Did I put forth enough effort? Am I going to regret not raising money for myself, or was it better to help out others first? From the beginning we have not known how the judges decided to cut people from the contest. Will all be known tomorrow or will their secrets be safe for another year? 

Well its rounding near 10pm. I am going to put on a movie in hopes that will help me to fall asleep. Good night all and I will blog the next chance I get.